we've both moved on.
have our own lives.
and yet 160907 keeps coming back
hugged ej everynight
something i havent done in a long long while.
today, i took out our past
the box i kept in my drawer filled with our stuff.
your cards, our pictures, ej's belt
and how we used to foolishly say that for every month we spent tgt
ej would go up a level in the ninjado colors(:
i remember i pushed you away
i changed and hurt you
and now 9 months have passed

im wishing you will come back.
but i know i can never compare to her
so different personalities.
e, i miss you
not in the way of platonic friendship
but i wish you were mine again.
im so sorry for letting you go all this time
and i know i cant do anything about it
but i loved you, lost you and now i cherished you
its just too late for regrets i guess.
sorry baby, how could i ever let you go.


160907 8:26pm

Pictures Post!

church-ed today!
havent been in awhile.
finally met sam and matt and gerald and clayton.
van and grace both didnt turn out.
well, signed up for LASERTAG with S(:
this saturday.
oh man, cant wait.

afterwards went to eat my fave wanton mee at joo chiat.
my dad drove us to see the president's house.
walao. super small lo
even smaller than GCT's one
then headed over to sim lim square
mummy bought a lumix cam!

high-teaed with cousins at lion city hotel
slack there and talked
and my cousin told me
my farenheit tix are out!
gotta pay her 141sgd man
ahhaha. cant wait for their concert in dec((:
daddy drove us home and i went out again
to meet A's clique(:
went to chinese garden to see the lanterns!
so pretty so pretty!
V and i was so hardcore in taking pics of every lantern(:(:
TL was pretty quiet today
cause her face got allergic reaction then swell up
but i seriously cannot see the swelling.
i think i cockeye alr. sian.
hahaha. met their new clique friend, M ( dont know how to spell her name(:
very funny girl.
A and i keep taking pics
then she squeezed her head inside one of the pic
super funny! then she still so proud tell everyone
super cute la she.
haha.
anyway, A bought a balloon dog for me!
super cute lo
got one is green and one white.
but the green look super mutated.
like its a sick dog.
so of course mine's the white one!
ahhahah.
then they left to go geylang eat seafood.


you know,
my dance class is so full
that cause i replied justis too late.
i didnt get into the class
sucks man.
have to wait for nov month now.
my dance skills need brushing up!!


B honey,
you're going through a tough time right now
but i know you can be strong
i've seen it in you
so move along with life
and remember i said that occasional relapses are fine
and i will always be here for you(:


yours sincerely,
Melissa(:



schedule for the week!
M:meeting B up for lunch!, maybe K-ing with A
T:getting dance pants and shopping
W:vivo to YH
TH: kbox man! JWWWWWW
FRI:Chubbs back from Japan! dinner with my lovely chubbie(:
S: LaserTag with S
S: church + work

busy yo!
signing out(:

spotted!
a cute caucasian guy on the bus to holland v
(:(:

jolted out from sleep by a phone call
B called.
crying, sobbing,
told me what happened
i tried my best in calming her down.
talked to her nicely.
and she took my advice.
so glad B!

so i promised her that during her work lunch breaks
i'll head down everyday to acc her.
just because i couldnt make it to meet her today
sorry B.

and my sis banged someone's car today
slight scratch though.
not so bad

plus i cannot join tinglei they all for kbox tmr
cause i have high tea session with my family
but will be meeting them to go chinese garden at night
to look at lanterns and stuff(:
and after that seafood at geylang!
which i dont take.
ahhaha.
cant wait.
church tmr. havent been in ages.

wonder hows S first time at church
i got shocked when i heard she was going
but happy though
more people getting to know christ
amen!
hope she likes it!

ANYWAY, JIAWEN'S JUST A REALLLLLLY GOOD FRIEND.
DONT ANYHOW THINK
ESPECIALLY BABYFACE YOU
FOREVER SAYING IM DATING GUYS.
WAIT TO DATE YOU ONLY LA(:(:

mass pictures upload(:

its been so long since i blogged
till e thought i changed my bloglink or something.
no i've just been lazy to switch on the com.
so busy with work now.
think most of my friends are too.
everyone so busy
meeting up has become almost a hassle.
ohwell. i've been shopping with beloved jiawen
ahhaha. cause we're working together
so after work straight away go shop!!
oh man. always feel so broke afterwards.
anyhow, i miss so many things!

my freshies:
carina so busy working and dating
kenny busy dating
jiarong also working and bballing
i saw d working at john little
i saw jiahui today after her dance sports
i saw weiwei from far at her touch rugby
i saw clarissa after shopping spree one night at wisma
the rest all MIA already.

my classmates:
my biker boy who sends me to sch almost everyday
my watermelon boy darren
my clique!!
my challenger friends
my cousins

i want lots of meetups with laughter and good friends.
soon please

boo whore!
exams are coming yo.
papers on the 20th, 21st and 22nd.
wish me luck(:

so anyhow, the last few days have been well spent
SLACKING!.
yes yes, i need to start studying soon.
maybe after i type out this entry(:
we'll see how.

i went to watch money no enough 2 with jw!
eh, less funnier, more touching.
however, i didnt cry at all.
cause i always cry at jack neo shows
sentimental whattttttt.
then this show, i didnt.
maybe cause i kept making fun of the show.
haha.
and then and then!
the biggest suprise i had
i walked to the exit
and i saw babyface!
omg, he was in the same theatre watching the same show.
haha. so coincidental.
he told me he was at cathay too
so i waited at the exit for him
hahah. so cool.
talked to him a bit before leaving with jw(:

didnt do much the next day,
headed to school for revisions
then head home again.

yesterday i went kbox with jw!
hahah from 2pm sing to 7pm.
damn damn fun!
that noob first time go kbox
then dinner-ed at kobayashi
and home!


lastly, good luck to all my freshies, friends, lovers, gfs, bfs, family for their exams(:


xoxo,
mel!

came across jann's blog
read one of her most recent posts.
looked up the links.


http://www.charleneyl.blogspot.com/
http://www.caiweii.blogspot.com/





i felt very sad for those people
having lost someone so close so dear to them.
im quite speechless actually
i was never a good comforter
these people are strangers to me
and yet i feel an ache in me
its almost as if i can feel their loss.
im so sorry to the two blog owners.
i understand your pain.
nothing can erase the heartache you have.
reading through their entries,
to hear them expressing their emotions
crying out to their loved ones
praying for them
hoping that it was a dream
wishing they'll come back
regretting that they did not cherish
punished themselves for not treating each other better
the sorrow
the anguish
the pain
the memories
the bitterness
the faint hope that they hold on to

i never want to go through the same experience as they went through
i know im selfish
i know someday everyone has to go
but i dont want them to
i want to keep everyone by my side
people whom im not close to
people whom im close to
enemies
friends
relatives
family
hellobyebye friends
everybody.

flu!
stupid babyface passed it to me
):


oh people, i got my freaking new friendster up and running
add me if you want.
just search under melissa.kid@hotmail.com
(:
loves,
mel